what's happenin'?

  i had a dream last night(my night time is your daytime) about changes. the ideal persona of me and what my life would look like and be, felt like a fever dream. if that was possible, you know dreaming something and it comes to reality, that would be both good and bad; i'd be living my ideal life and be happy but miserable at the same time. 

guess my own reality, not the one made up for pleasant dreams is the life i get to live until i make the changes to my life that i want. doubtful i can get into harvard or NYU and be a business minor/paralegal major living in canada with loyal and consistent friends. 

it's nice to dream.

24hrs until my mini vacation, and I nothing planned just how i wanted. this is my down time, my rest and reset time. i plan on enjoying every single minute of it and not telling people im off so i can have some time to myself. just me and my midnight shawdow. we need this time together just to chill, veg out and do nothing. 

work is slightly easier but we keep losing people left and right because they aren't used to the expectation levels we had become used to, just work maybe a week and never come back again or work long enough to get one check and then just abandon the job. do i hold it against them? it's not my place to say because i have been there for years and know that the sudden changes in everything has effected people differently; whether they are quitting, abandoning the job or switching positions because the work has become too strenious. i feel as though if the option to come back is open then i hope they do, more than likely they'll come back around christmas time. i hope they do come back though, we had begun to have another good time working. but now, it's just meh.

how's everyone else doing?

getting things off my chest

 good morning my republic, it has been a long time since(at least i think it has been) but i did try to write something yesterday and then again on monday but my bed was my best friend for my whole two days off, i could tell my seasonal depression was starting up and i just wanted to be left alone; i did and i was.

you know, lately i don't like how people make cracks at those who admit they are lonely and when a call or text comes through, we choose who we want to answer for. not everyone needs our attention because all they're gonna do is brag about them, then ask about you and then go right back to making everything about them. 

who has time for all of that? 

getting ready for my mini vaction this month, i been tryng to keep it consistent and just take some time off every month, i can't call out like that until my points drop again, they start coming off next month and then every month after that, i just still feel it's bullshit your find it okay to charge people points when they callout sick, just because you feel people are just lying to get out of work your labeling people without understanding how they could be covering up an illness to come and work for your stupid ass, it's still a deathly virus out there so people are getting sick more often( i should know i don't get sick often and i went through it a few times) but guess since your a billion dollar corporation you don't have to be understanding to your worker's wellness because a lie is still and will always be a body coming into work.